Perhaps it's meant to be
I feel as though I'm trapped at times
A bird caught up inside the thicket
Of branches in winter's solitary trees
No leaves
They leave the bare arms crossing one another
So many different paths to choose
Which one to fly upon
I know not how to move
If only I could close my eyes, breathe in this light of sight inside my spirit,
Trust this divine flight
The path will come with scars but I will make it through
For fate brings even the biggest of fools
To the most beautifulest of sun's rise
It finds me in moments when i brace myself
trying to be strong
believing i can be
perhaps it hears my breath of doubt
the silent exhale that slips
my lips
pounces upon the weakness
I attempt to mollify
failing miserably
in my endeavors
to protect this vulnerability I contain
I break my chains
become undone
and gnarl the delicate colors
whose hues I tried
so feverishly to stay within
I casted scriptures into the positions of stars in the night sky
Tossed coins of gold one by one into oceanic puddles that rained droplets to mouths that were dry
Disattaching my spirit from all around me so that ropes could not bind me
But rather be affected
Affected by this change that was created when I stepped off into the vast Universe
The holiest source pours from rains that eyes can only see once color coded streams of paint mesh into one another
So are you my brother?
Are you my sister?
I cannot tell now that everything looks the same
But that is when you see the truth
The truth
Breathe in and exhale deep
I float on top of drum beats
Ba-dum, Ba-dum, Ba-dum…
Djembes sound my royal entrance
As I ascend past levels of mind creations
Mixing, intertwining emotions paint my world a color unnamed
Unseen by optics and retinas
Amalgamations of sensations flavor my palette
Like the taste of
Souls building triadically
I hear treble clefs as they break through the outer walls
Of my life’s plasmatic substances
Bringing the waves of the ocean out from within
The waters of my physical makeup
And I flow
Leaving traces of a moment’s peace
A moment of peace
For this moment, I am
Peace
Spatially intoxicated with too many occupants
I search my inner mind
For the peace and meditation
To bring me back to a balanced medium
Still I know the need for change exists
Although occurring at every angle - some say ...
--Still my eyes can't perceive it,
So I move in lateral motilities
With third Eye wide open
To opportunities
That may vertically lift me
Out of the X and Y hemispheres
In Positive Perceptions
Of this blessed Life that was given to me
And Rationality be strewn about
Like Dust
Among the walls
Around the corners
Above the lights
Beneath the rugs ...
And I'm too tired to clean up
So I live in a clutter of emotions
And breathe easy
Knowing that from discord comes perfect harmony
So from chaos
So shall order then ensue
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